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Monday, September 15, 2003
 | Cannibal on the Prowl
So today the cannibal tried to convince me that I was in danger of angering another person, and she made herself out to be interested in warnng me. I went to the allegedly angry person and found that nothing was wrong between us. I did not mention the cannibal's slanted version of the way things are. I really don't want to create hard trouble for the cannibal, but neither do I want to be pulled into any of her fantasy games or manipulative attempts to get me into her stew pot. I keep in mind Bryan's comment about her possible opinion that I hold my beliefs and conduct merely as a protective shell in the same way she holds her middle class respectability as a mere shell of respectability. I feel like she is still poking around for some way to get a handle on me, some way to steer my reactions so that she can guide me into her----oven, kettle, call it what you will: that place where what I am is carved up for her emotional high. |
